Why I don't date...

There are several reasons why I don't date. And probably a more reasons why I'm still single. Dating to me is a constant tug-of-war. It's full of compromise which usually translates to no one being happy. Or you compromise who you are until you can't even recognize yourself anymore. A lot of the relationships I've experienced and have seen have been one sided. I don't want to inadvertently choose resentment.


Another reason I don't date is because the whole process is absurd. Meeting people in a small town is difficult, there's no where to go. There are no quaint meet queues in real life.


In large cities, there is so much to do and so many people, that everyone isolates themselves to their group of friends. The bar scene is good for hook-ups with 21 year olds that have 3 DUIs and no license. The libraries are frequented by perves. Cafés and coffee shops are for hipsters too cool for me. So I'm left with the internet. On the internet, you find all 3 types of these men plus more horrendous ones. I get messages from men who are bold enough to say things about my tits or wanting to fuck me before they say hello. I've been called babe, baby or sweety by men I'd just started messaging. I've had married men hit me up. (Ladies, if he's over 30 and has a kik, he's married! Stay away unless you're into that type of thing.) I've had a few messages from guys who seem like they want to get to know me. We talk for hours, messaging back and forth. I almost get that teenager feeling of talking all night to the boy I've been crushing on. And then they make grand plans, let's date. Dinner and movies and a relationship is our very near future. Sometimes it's a ploy to get into my pants. Sometimes it's just a fun game for them to play, toy with my emotions (though I lack normal emotions and attachments).

So for me, ultimately, it's a waste of time. Let me waste another day, trying to find Mr. Right. Why, when Mr. Right Now is good enough to satisfy my needs. I get to spend less time wondering why he didn't text and more time texting whoever I want. I get to choose who I spend my time with. I have freedom.

I like the freedom!!!