As I have gotten older and my sexuality has matured, my body has gone through changes.
When I was
14 years old, I had been masturbating for almost a year. I could orgasm from
rubbing my nipples alone. I discovered my clit around that age too and was enjoying
my self-love. I also discovered internet porn, erotica and porno mags.
When I was
18, I lost my virginity and in one single night, I tried almost everything. I
gave my first blow job that night, slow and with a bit of teeth. I was a quick
learner and eventually gave the perfect BJ. Those college years were great. I
wasn’t really into kissing but with the right partner, I could almost get off
from a good make-out session. I had sex
in cars, in twin-size beds and the forest behind the dorms. I was adventurous
but still a bit timid.
In my early
to mid-20’s, I had an array of sexual relationships. I dated women and men. I
enjoyed a threesome or 2. I bought sex toys and really tried to explore the
world of sex. There were one night stands and drunken hook-ups. I had relationships
that bordered on obsessions because I could separate sex from love but not
chastity from love. The make-out to orgasm part of my life was entering a new
realm at that point. I met almost virgins and made sure that status was gone; I
had discovered pity sex. (Pity sex - a
strong feeling of sadness or sympathy for someone that results in sex.)
By my late 20’s, I learned the
metaphor, “you can never go home again” applied to my sex life. The guys who
seemed decent in bed 7 years earlier, were awful in bed. I had grown a lot
sexually and they hadn’t. I met young Marines who knew how to serve a body,
older men who could open my mind as well as my legs and a couple who redefined
relationships for me. I started a fairly successful fetish business. I started
the redefinition of myself.
Now, in my 30’s, I am in the middle
of my revival. I was never one to follow many rules or do things the way others
have. I have stopped chasing my own tail and decided to date women exclusively.
I took a stand and declared my pan-sexuality and stopped entertaining bullshit.
I have had some of the most amazing sex to date. I have made an art of giving
an orgasm. I have a small collection of sex toys and eventually want to create
my own. I have declared my sexuality to be my own for the first time in my
life. I love that I can look back and see my transition into the woman I am. I
love that I have a sexual time line. My sex is infinite and we’re just at the
beginning.
Misty
